Yes, you can manage and handle things and look after yourself but you are very unhappy.
Something isn't working, even though it may have worked in the past. New behaviour for you would include making a conscious effort to reach out to other people.
I have wanted to write to you for years but always feel I should pull myself together and count my blessings instead.I am 72-years-old, twice married and a widow of a few years. When my second husband died, I had over four years of difficult legal and financial problems because of his self-made will.We would both be grateful for your shared experience.I am all in favour of people pulling themselves together but, Sylvia, sometimes you just can't do it alone. If you live in a state of fear and panic and cry all the time, you are suffering from serious depression, or even having a nervous breakdown, and you must explain your situation to your GP.I am an only child and have no brothers or sisters of my own.
About six months ago, I began to panic and am constantly in tears and frightened of many things.Now I just want to hide and cry, knowing that nobody misses me. I cook, keep myself attractive, stay slim, walk my dog, but I feel constantly that some disaster is about to happen.I sometimes feel ashamed and that I am being punished.My circle of friends and acquaintances has become much smaller.I have had to cope with various health problems alone.You could also use the computer to research cultural, educational, social opportunities in your area. I see that your local town has an alternative health centre that offers all kinds of services.